It is difficult to just be with God and be silent, as evidenced by this blog entry.
But somehow, even the silence of God is a gift.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Silence
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Praise Him
Still don't know how to say what is happening.
Have you ever been broken by the reality of your own selfishness and self-centredness? Flinging yourself in hope on the feet of Jesus.
And then in the next song, have God tell you that certain events were for you? Because of His love and desire.
And somehow this does not put you back at the centre at all.
But the honor and humiliation of it is just overwhelming.
I've been there tonight.
What a mystery our Lord is, His ways and His thoughts. His love and faithfulness.
Oh my God, may I discover more and love you more.
"Praise the Lord, all you nations
Praise Him all you people of the earth
For He loves us with an unfailing love
The faithfulness of the Lord endures forever."
Psalm 117
Rejoice!
Have you ever been broken by the reality of your own selfishness and self-centredness? Flinging yourself in hope on the feet of Jesus.
And then in the next song, have God tell you that certain events were for you? Because of His love and desire.
And somehow this does not put you back at the centre at all.
But the honor and humiliation of it is just overwhelming.
I've been there tonight.
What a mystery our Lord is, His ways and His thoughts. His love and faithfulness.
Oh my God, may I discover more and love you more.
"Praise the Lord, all you nations
Praise Him all you people of the earth
For He loves us with an unfailing love
The faithfulness of the Lord endures forever."
Psalm 117
Rejoice!
Monday, October 22, 2007
Confession
Ever feel like you have so much to say but when you pick up the pen or rest your fingers on the keyboard, nothing comes?
It is hard to capture a particular thought or emotion long enough to elaborate on it. But maybe elaborating isn't needed. Here are a few thoughts and emotions:
God loves me.
I love Him.
There is something dangerous happening in the spiritual realm right now.
Joy.
Wonder.
Fear.
Hope.
Confession is a necessary and painful part of growth. Something that isn't done very often but something that I think I need to do as part of this spiritual battle.
Abba, what would you have me say?
I confess that I have hidden behind a mask of spirituality. I hold myself to be a person of integrity and honest vulnerability but that isn't true. I have sought the esteem of my friends, Church and strangers first. Lord, forgive me for being deceitful. Even a single lie tarnishes the trust others have given.
I confess that I am afraid of this confession. That everything I have said and done will be judged by the confession. That the truth I have spoken or acted upon will be lost.
Abba, help me to seek You first. Always. I love you.
*cries*
It is hard to capture a particular thought or emotion long enough to elaborate on it. But maybe elaborating isn't needed. Here are a few thoughts and emotions:
God loves me.
I love Him.
There is something dangerous happening in the spiritual realm right now.
Joy.
Wonder.
Fear.
Hope.
Confession is a necessary and painful part of growth. Something that isn't done very often but something that I think I need to do as part of this spiritual battle.
Abba, what would you have me say?
I confess that I have hidden behind a mask of spirituality. I hold myself to be a person of integrity and honest vulnerability but that isn't true. I have sought the esteem of my friends, Church and strangers first. Lord, forgive me for being deceitful. Even a single lie tarnishes the trust others have given.
I confess that I am afraid of this confession. That everything I have said and done will be judged by the confession. That the truth I have spoken or acted upon will be lost.
Abba, help me to seek You first. Always. I love you.
*cries*
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